Ironsightt

HUGE DISCLAMER: I'm making this journal to someone that should know who this journal's pointing out to. Call it a letter, sorta. Nothing bad or anything and, this'll probably be erased in a couple of days, give or take. Either way, this is for you, if you know who you are.

I know you have no reason to talk to me or to even remember me, and I know it's been god fuck long since we've talked, more so than I imagine. The reason why I'm making this to journal to you is because it would probably be abrupt to just message you out of the blue after like 4 to 5 years of not speaking to each other. Oh and I know that there times you lurk my page, it's okay, I won't tell if you won't, hehe, um, anyways.

I just, oh god, remember how many times I've said "I just" to you, but who's counting, right? I just want to say, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for how childish I was or how I acted to you, or how I was so fucking clingy to the point I cringe at myself when I think about it. I should've given you space when you needed it, and I really should've made the effort to form a friendship, but with everything happening all at once, it got hard for me, from dealing with school, to dealing with mother dearest BS, to being broke, to feeling like shit because of how I acted. Or, and I know this'll give it away, trying to close up feelings that were still there. They're gone, but the memories, they never leave, and I think that's a good thing. No excuses though, I should've learned better.

To tell you the truth, you were, and still is, a huge good impact to me. You gave me the inspiration and the motivation to not only graduate, and start my career, but to find the passion in said career, and to never give up on it. You gave me a wake up call to my life, and for that, I will always be thankful and grateful to you, and for you. Hell, maybe I can try my hand on Maple pie, if I can find the recipe. After things ended, I decided to put my foot down, get my shit together, and do what I need to do to start my life. You saw the graduation pic, so you know I made it. I did whatever I could to get over everything, but, I never forget someone that becomes a huge impact on my life, nor the memories of said person. You made it to the Troy hall of fame, what can I say. Just know, I never forgotten you, and I always ask myself if you're okay.

I know you've forgotten me or trying to forget me, hell you're probably thinking "why is he using Journals to shoutout at me" and I totally understand. You have your life you wanna worry about, and I don't wanna hold you back on anything. But if you ever wanna talk about anything, from our favorite shows or our favorite games, just like old times as old friends, you know my skype and my Tumblr. Oh and I guess here on DA, but message me on notes if that's fine. I'm also on facebook messenger if anything.

I just wanted to make this because it's something I wanted to say for a long time, and it's long overdue. I didn't have the strength, but I do now. Besides it's 2017. Always forward, never backwards. So I hope you're doing well, I hope you're okay, I wish you the utmost best in life, and know I'm open if you ever wanna talk, up to you, no pressure. I wish you well, Good luck with School, life and family stuff. Oh and I love Peebee too. If you can get pass the shitty face animation that Bioware did to Andromeda, she's quite a cutie for an Asari. 

Before graduation, I kept on seeing post after post of people, from Tumblr or dA, fully graduating from either school or college, ready to deal with the world and what it has to offer. It’s amazing how we’ve came a long way. We were just kids and teens, trying to fit in and survive every harsh or good day of school or college. Now here we are, graduates. We’re either looking for that dream job we always wanted, or trying to survive the next phase after high school, which can be college or a program of choice, like me with culinary school, hehe.

It’s just, through the hardships we've faced in the past, it’s amazing how far we’re able to go, and how far we’ve gotten to complete our life goals. The road to adulthood is scary at times, but in a way, it’s pretty fulfilling.

I've been in deviantArt for three years, maybe four, and throughout those years, so much has happened. I've seen people grow, I've seen people left, I've seen people love and move on with each moment of their lives. And not just on DA, in real life as well. It's sad but honestly, it's truly amazing because we're all moving ahead with our lives. It's like a book. We're making new chapters and putting in key moments in our life. From the people we meet, to the lessons we've learned, and the goals we've achieved. And for each chapter we complete, we look back at them for laughs and smiles, to see what we can improve on, or what we can do to make things better for us. It's an interesting concept, and one that I love a lot. 

Just something I wanted to say, I hope you all are enjoying your summer. And to some of the students that haven’t graduated yet, enjoy the good years while you can. It’s gonna get harder with each minute, even if you are, or you think you are prepared.

-Ironsight